The shutter lover's gone astray

It has been months since I began noticing the signs. Why am I such a constant fail in capturing the highlights of my weeks lately? What’s been distracting me so much from remembering to grab my camera, or even my cellphone, for a quick shutter to capture such fun memories I ought to keep?

Is it stress? Well, yes, I’ve been under such stressful ordeals lately. Delving into details about that requires another blog post so I’ll just leave it at that. But stress, definitely a considerable one.

Is it depression? One fine morning, I read this status update from one of my facebook friends (just can’t seem to remember who it was so sorry if i can’t give the proper credit). S/he said, “Depression is just a sign that you’ve been strong for quite too long already.” I kinda lingered on that thought. Is it really exhaustion that drives people into depression. I mean, I’m happy, as far as I believe. But as I skimmed back, I realized that I’ve been through a lot of overwhelming stuff and I don’t seem to be shaken by it. It’s like, it just passed by, just like that. And they say, it’s not supposed to be that way. It should’ve at least changed me significantly, but it didn’t. But I realized, I’ve always loved to take pictures. All the time. Like, everyday, I have photos of my myself with friends. Everywhere I go, I always keep a memory of it. But now… I don’t anymore. So, yeah, I think it’s just fair enough to still open my mind on this one.

Or, maybe, it’s because deep inside, I’ve been screaming for a new camera? Now THAT, is a good question!! =)