Manic Depression

This rather empty existence – only a little more than a year now – had been a series of intense sensations, some of them horrifying, but moments like these, serene and clear, were revitalizing. I have read about manic depression – that is, how a person’s moods could shift dramatically from joy to despair, then back again. Incredibly enough, my life somehow seemed to embody this mental disorder. In enjoy the feeling of reminiscing the sugar coated chapters of my youth, but I dread what was at the other end of the spectrum, those gruesome hallucinations that were like dark threads in an emerging pattern. If only I could find the common ground, I would sacrifice the moments of elation to be spared the depths of sickening fear.