Letter to someone

You will never believe your eyes that it is me who is actually writing to you. But you see, still words (I meant ‘printed’) are somewhat my, if not best, better assets. So, my litany starts here.

First off, I wanted to say I’m sorry for being so hard on you. You see, there are a lot of things you just don’t see when you look at me. I tend to show my strong side(as always) but in fact, well yeah, I really am that tough. But I’d like you to know that I’m deeply regretful whenever I yell and scream at you all the time. I’m sorry for all the frowns, eyerolls and all those “pambabaras” I apologize with all my heart. I can see you laughing right now.

But really, I am terribly repentant about my behaviour towards you. It’s just that I can’t help to lose my temper whenever you get on my nerves. You should have known your limitations as well. It’s been incredible hard for me too, you know. Anyway, semester’s almost over, I just wanted you to be aware of what is actually going on in my head at whatever times you may have noticed my ‘nakakunot na noo’

So, enough of the act of contrition, shall we?

But above all, this is what my heart truly desires to tell you. THANK YOU. Thank you for sticking up with me. Thank you for empathizing my bizarre and violent mood swings. Thank you for keeping your cool inspite of my screaming-out-my-lungs moments when I’m fiery enraged. Thank you for reminding me to smile when I seem to forget to. Thanks for touching my life with your rather irritating yet sweet little deeds. Thanks for coming into my life. Thanks for being a special friend.

I told you, I’m really not that strenuous. Medyo recessive lang yung sensitive side ko,but it’s still there. And FYI, you are one of the very few people who made that side of my personality surface out. Wala kang idea noh? I bet this eye-dilating letter drove you nuts. You’ll never get a clue of what I truly feel. As a matter of fact, no one really does. I told you, still words are my best assets. I know you’ll never find the slightest circumstance to read this letter. I just have to get this out of my chest, and still keep my self respect and pride intact. So, there, I said it. Sorry, and thank you. But there’s another thing....