Gratitude

Sifting through the ashes of our relationship, I found many things to be grateful for.

I can say “thank you” for the early morning smiles, the warmest Christmas, and all the love you have offered unconditionally.

I can say “thank you” for being there, willing to be shared.

I can say “thank you” for the countless poems you were the inspiration for, and the many changes you were the catalyst to.

I can say “thank you” that in spite of the worsts, you left behind several unintended gifts.

Through you, I re-examined my need (Uhh…desire?) for one significant other to share the rest of my life with

You commanded in me an unwilling (but probably much needed…) re-evaluation of self, behaviour patterns, relationshipping and a corresponding change in attitudes, and growth.

I am now nicer to people.

I am more in touch with my feelings, the things and people around me ….. life.

And of course, a scattering of poems (the best of poems, the worst of poems) that never would have happened without your disruptions.

But how, in my grasp of the English language, faltering as it is, can I ever thank you for giving me the most precious thing any person could ever give to me

….me?

Yes, you have given me a brand new me..

And for this I realized that I have become a better person for having loved, even though I lost.

Thank you.